i don't think i can go on very much longer i dont even care enought o explain why just fuck everyhting

you guys keepdoing your useless hsit againt these fuckers

im just gonna fade away

Sometimes I wonder...

am i on the right side?

-mAtthew

SOUND OFF

EVERYONE STILL ALIVE SAY SOMETHING NOW

yup thats right, kiddos. Old man NOOC is having a paranoia attack.

who the hell is still even looking around anymore?

i mean seriously, why has everyone gone... quiet....

anyway, what happened at the park:

NOTHING

i brought my book and a bag full of... defenses... and NOTHING HAPPENS. i now know why kaiju didnt show, but seriously? no proxies popped up to say hello? slendy didn't even drop by to tell me im fucked?

were all these warning signs for nothing?

...am... i even being followed?...






...im going to go poke the sleeping bear now...

...all alone...

where the fuck are my parents? ITS 12:30 AM AND THEY AREN'T HOME.

THIS.

NEVER.

HAPPENS.

and on the day im supposed to meet kaiju too...

this is no coincidence...

something bad is happening... i just know it...

will update later when i calm down from my short mental breakdown...

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alright, everyone is home now.

still... odd that they got home at 1 AM...

and then my dad HAD to point out the fact that tonight is when the moon is closest to the earth AND that it is a full moon.

hooray... full super moon (as he called it)

when we went out side to look at it, there was a VERY definite ring of clouds around it... too dark to take a picture of it though... but it looked like a giant fucking eye.

call me superstitious, but there is no way that can be a good omen...

im having second thoughts about meeting with kaiju now... but i have to go through with it... but i will be VERY cautious... probably to a faulty degree... *sigh*

anyway, im gonna try to calm my nerves and then sleep

-Matthew

That there video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ozrnhNe8eCg

Here is the video. Not much going on really. that distortion got buffed out for the most part when i uploaded to youtube. the feminine voice is still in there... but the negative screen isnt... anyway...

im going to bed... doing something exceedingly normal tomorrow: dentist appointment. havent had one since a long time ago.

i see the fan, now where's the shit

im nearly in tears about how bad this looks...

just today, i was walking my dog and on the last leg of it, i looked at the sky cuz it was so gorgeous. i looked higher still and saw more gorgeousness.

then i saw the operator symbol.

the fucking CLOUDS were a giant fucking operator symbol.

i shat my pants and ran my ass back to my house.

also, tried to take video of the entire cloud formation, but the wind had disturbed it too much, so i couldnt get the entire thing in it's complete form.

but it was there, and i am scared out of my fucking mind.

what the HELL is going to happen here?

Here is said vid:

ok... maybe not... for some reason, i cant upload the video... but i will continue to try to do so.... i looked at it again... while there is only No One in the vid (along with my dogs) there is also a single, strange distortion. randomly as i am talking, the whole screen goes negative and i can hear a voice, saying something that i cant understand. sounded female, but i dont know... ill look into it and report my findings...

my try to upload to youtube next...

new blog

yeah i  gots a new one. for bitching and moaning.

http://staysanestayalive.blogspot.com/

so if you are interesting in me bitching and moaning, go there.